Harry messaged me today apologising for the names he called me and for the way he reacted to everything including…

Tom’s triple heart bypass was successful and he’s out of the woods and now that the urgency of the situation…

Love, like everything else in life, changes constantly, it evolves accordingly. When you truly love someone, it lives on and…

Tom was rushed into the hospital yesterday with breathing difficulties and blood pressure of 200/120. Today he was told that…

I was googling something or other tonight and it led me onto some websites on attachment theories. Reading through, I…

I know what I’m doing with Harry. I know that ten days ago he triggered some major fears of vulnerability…

On Thursday evening, Harry suggested that we didn’t see each other this weekend, instead, he said he would give me…

I take it back. This, that I have with Harry isn’t a healthy endeavour. It’s no more healthy than what…

In my last counselling session, we discussed how I was going to move forward without the ongoing support and with…

I don’t believe in love anymore, at least not the romantic kind. I don’t believe that two people come together…

Not even seven weeks in with Harry and the cracks are beginning to show but more importantly, is what my…

It shouldn’t really come as any surprise to me that I’m saying this but I miss being single. The last…

When we first looked around the house we now live in, we were only able to do so as the…

 Seeing Harry tonight, all of my worries from yesterday just disappeared and I realised that my old patterns are returning.…

I think I’ve come across the first thing to bother me about Harry. I’m not expecting a perfect man who…

Harry invited me to his house to watch a film for our fourth date. I agreed even though it would…

Last night I laid in bed and was a bit worried about not having the instant magnetic attraction to Harry that…

I woke with terrible anxiety this morning and totally panicky about having a third date with Harry. I was worried…

Harry came to my house to pick me up for our second date. I opened the door and was greeted…

I went on a date with the only man left on the dating site that I was prepared to continue…

I was supposed to go on a second date with Mark tonight but I decided against it. Endless talk of…

Mark has done exactly what I hoped he wouldn’t do and has started talking about sex and how he can’t…

I decided to give the dating game another go. I thought that it was all well and good talking to…

I’m struggling a little to adjust to our new home. I had illusions that moving house would solve everything but…

I saw the counsellor again today. We didn’t do EMDR this week, she didn’t want to so instead, we talked…

We moved into our new house today. By this evening, when everything was in and all the beds made up…

I saw my counsellor, Caroline again today and brought up what she said last week about me having Borderline Personality…

Borderline. That’s what she said. I remembered it last night. She thinks I have Borderline Personality Disorder and after extensive…

I feel shit. I decided to have a few sessions with a counsellor to support me as I go through…

While clearing out and packing the drawers in my bedroom today, I came across the card that Gary gave me…

It’s been a week since Gary turned up on my doorstep and I’m happy to say I emotionally survived the…

I had a dream last night that I was with Gary, we were waiting to be alone so we could…

I feel awful today, not surprisingly. I had just a few hours of crap sleep and woke up feeling just…

The doorbell rang tonight, I wasn’t expecting anyone so assumed it would be a Jehovah Witness or a salesman. When…

The house is ours. We got confirmation a few days ago that all of the checks came back fine so…

This time last week I was in the worst mood I’ve been in for a very long time. I felt…

I’ve been reading a book called The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender. It’s a lovely book, so well…

Katie and I were talking about my family and she commented on how different they all are to me saying…

I haven’t written here for two months. Taking myself off the dating radar means that I’ve spent loads of quality…

I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last couple of days about relationships and men. I thought I only…

Liam got in touch today to say that he’d had second thoughts and that sleeping with someone the way we…

I met Liam tonight. He said hello, kissed my cheek and we went to the bar for a drink and…

With Alice’s words about dating ringing in my ears, I decided to test the theory and try and find someone…

A few years ago, when Dad moved house, he gave away loads of his stuff to his children. One of…

I went out for a few drinks with my friend, Summer on Saturday night. We ended up in a club…

Alice inadvertently gave me a lesson on being easy-going, relaxing about stuff and just having fun.On Christmas eve, she went…

I gave some thought to my compatibility results from yesterday. In reality, so many of the things that I listed…

When I was married to Greg, I read a book called Are You The One For Me, that really helped…

I wrote yesterday about becoming a high-value woman to attract a high-value man so I thought it only right that…

I’ve been thinking today about the changes I’m making in my life, changes that should bring about me living a…

I have just finished reading my third book in five days. I’m a pretty quick reader anyway but certainly not…

Today, on the fourth day of creating a valuable life, I found myself looking at my home, my stuff and…

It’s day three of my social media ban and I don’t think I’ll be going back. I feel so much…

On the last day of 2016, I made the impulsive decision to go social media free throughout January. I gave…

Apart from that… Everything’s fucking rosy. Those were the words to my brother-in-law, Max, today after telling him all about…

Every now on then, curiosity gets the better of me and I look on Facebook to see what Phil is…

I had a conversation about narcissists with my nephew, James. It led to him saying to me that I attract…

Mo messaged me again last night, this time to send me photos of his visit to the Cornwall. Later he…

Mo, the man that I’ve been chatting to for the last few months, at first seemed to be different to…

My Dad lied to me today. He sat in my kitchen, looked me in the eye and lied through his…

I read back what I wrote the other day about the moments of love I’ve experienced and I suddenly realised…

I woke this morning having had a dream about love. A man had his arms around me and kissed my…

When I was a teenager, our family was friends with a couple who had no children. I thought about their…

“The funeral is over, now it’s time he got back to normal.” Twelve words. Twenty months, a string of insults,…

I had a very big moment of weakness and slept with Gary last night and it was probably exactly what…

Each time I’ve joined a dating site, I’ve felt disappointed at the quality of men, how they all seem to…

It’s two months since I ended my relationship with Gary but I haven’t been able to write about him much…

I’m going through an odd phase in life. I feel tired, angry, frustrated. I feel a lack of connection, not…

Last night I found myself suddenly feeling really sad. It enveloped me completely and at 1am, unable to sleep, I…

I told myself I wouldn’t ever do it again, but I have. I’ve joined a dating site again. I want…

After weeks of talking most nights over text, Howie and I met up tonight for a walk along the beach…

A sledgehammer of grief hit me today which resulted in me texting Gary to ask him why he kept on…

I feel so angry today. I’m pretty sure it’s self-inflicted from unhealed crap from years ago coming back up. I…

Throughout my whole life, apart from when I was with Phil, the only love I’ve really known is one of…

After the debacle with Gary ten days ago, he sent me this text today. “Hi Annie. I hope you’ve checked…

My relationship with Gary might be over but I’m determined not to go back to my old ways. I’m continuing…

I feel so empty. It’s so strange after a break up. Suddenly my phone is silent, the endless drama which…

Gary told me a few days ago that I am his soul mate! He doesn’t even believe in such things,…

It’s week four of my healthy eating and new exercise routine and while the weight is slow in coming off…

Gary texted me earlier to tell me he’d tried to delete his profile from the dating site but that he…

I spent some time thinking about Gary, about Howie and about me. Gary and I argued relentlessly again about him…

When Gary and I discussed a new way our relationship could work, it was agreed that we would talk about…

I had a small moment of doubt about this thing with Gary earlier. Very small, hardly worth mentioning but some…

Last night I dreamt that I won the lottery. A huge amount. Enough to set us up for life. In…

Gary and I were talking when out of the blue he said, “You’re to wear hold-ups and no knickers every…

I sent this to Gary:“I’ve thought a great deal about what you said a couple of weeks ago about wanting…