I had a dream last night but I can only remember a small part of it. In the dream, I was looking through a pile of catalogues feeling excited by the choices and the chance to buy what I want now that I could. One of the catalogues was unusual in that it was a book of transvestites with big hands. Tom was with me as I was looking through them.
I’m guessing this is about my identity, about how my new life, when I leave Tom, will give me a chance to find myself again after the confusion that Tom’s influence has had on me, maybe bringing balance to the masculine and feminine aspects of my personality It’s definitely about having choices, something that I haven’t felt as if I’ve had for a very long time.