I feel as though I am pregnant with a new life that’s growing from within. It kicks and shifts constantly to remind me of its imminent arrival. I sense it’s the birth of a long, slow process of growth and self-discovery that I know will change me beyond all recognition. I’m scared, I don’t know what it will bring and I don’t know who I will find myself to be but I’m beginning to be a little excited too.
The feelings I’m having during this ripening are overwhelming. I’m in the depths of despair most of the time, but slivers of light are beginning to feature. They shine with hope, happiness and love. I want so badly for them to be within my reach.