Phil sent me an email tonight, “We need to talk. I am not prepared to have a relationship with an email address any longer.” He went on to say that he felt unloved, unwanted and uncared for.
Sadly, I had to agree with him. I’ve no doubt he feels that way and I think his feelings are justified. I’m hardly throwing myself at his feet and so we ended it.
This time, I totally recognise that I only ever want to be with Phil when my life is difficult, when I feel lonely and when I need support so knowing that, the next time it happens, which I know it will, I will try and remember all of that and not contact him. It’s not fair and I’ve been putting my own needs before his for the past year and it needs to stop now.