I kind of miss Phil today, really miss him. It’s odd and I’m not sure why I feel this way. I guess it’s for the same reasons why I used to have days when I missed Tom. Back then I thought it meant I wanted to be with him, now I accept that it’s normal, at least for me, to have days where I just miss someone I was once close to.
I suppose what I’m missing is friendship with someone that I have an affinity with. I long for those blissful long lazy days and nights we shared, wrapped up in bed together doing nothing but talk for hours upon end. I miss intimacy. Sharing wholly with someone like you don’t with anyone else in life.
I know it’s not really Phil I miss. I know now it was never really Tom that I missed. I’d love to have an intimate relationship in my life again and missing Phil is showing me this.