I went round to Gary’s last night, I had to talk to him about him putting his hand to my throat. He said that it hadn’t meant anything and that it had been partly a sexual thing as we’d just had sex and partly a joke but I can’t help but think there’s more to it. It’s hardly an act of kindness, is it? Once we’d spoken about it and I’d told him how unsettling I found it and that it was never to happen again, we sat and watched some TV and he handed me an envelope. Inside was a card, the message inside was very sweet, so sweet I find the whole thing confusing. It read, ‘Just wanted to say thank you very very much for being who you are, for being the way you are and for loving me as you do. I’ve known you for such a short time, but feel as though I’ve known you my whole life. It was as easy to fall in love with you as it is difficult to see you leave each time we’ve been together. I love you deeply, Annie, I know that that love will only grow more and more each day. I look forward to our future together and everything our partnership has to offer. Love always, Gary xxx‘
He can be so lovely, loving, kind and thoughtful one minute and the next, he’s demanding, insecure and forceful. I don’t know what to think right now but I do know I’m still on my guard and will be for quite a while.