Yet again, I ended things with Gary last week. The stress of everything going on with the house was irrelevant to Gary and still, all he cared about was us having sex and getting drunk but I’m seriously wavering in my decision about not being with him. I know I can’t deny that things aren’t great between us, they never have been, but I’m wondering if my current feelings are more to do with needing someone to talk to about all the feelings that are coming up with Dad. Sadly, Gary isn’t the type of person that I can talk to about this kind of stuff and I wonder if that’s where my frustrations lie.
While I would love a real relationship, right now I just need someone to talk to and to understand what’s going on in my head and while I know that Gary’s not that man, he’s also better than nothing.