Gary and I were talking when out of the blue he said, “You’re to wear hold-ups and no knickers every time you come here and every time we go out. The only time you don’t have to wear them is when you have on a short skirt or dress.” He then instructed me to tone up my legs, bum and tummy in readiness to start wearing dresses and skirts more. I liked it. A lot. Being told what to do and how to make him happy, really made me feel something I haven’t felt for a long time, if ever but I can’t really explain that at the moment.
I don’t know if this arrangement will work long term but I’m certainly prepared to give it a go. I have agreed, and happily, to his demands and so tomorrow I will stop eating crap food and will start exercising. The funny thing is, this is something I’ve wanted to do for ages. Every time I see Sasha and how much weight she’s lost recently and how much better she looks in clothes, I tell myself I will do it but I never do. Maybe having Gary ‘making’ me do it, is the incentive I need to do something for me, that I’ve wanted for a long time.
I promised myself this, a healthy body and one I was proud of when I was in my late 30s, I still haven’t achieved it and nowhere close to it. This time, if I don’t do it, there will be consequences and that is certainly pushing me towards success this time around. My determination is like no other that I’ve had before. I’m more than happy to follow his direction on this.