Seeing Harry tonight, all of my worries from yesterday just disappeared and I realised that my old patterns are returning. I felt rejected by Harry after the weekend when we had sex, he didn’t text anywhere near as much as usual and I thought he’d lost interest and so I instantly started finding fault in him and reasons why it won’t work. Maybe that’s my coping mechanism rather than feeling the pain of not being wanted? As it happens, Harry had contacted me less because he wanted to give me space to spend quality time with my children. Spending time with him tonight was so lovely. We only sat in the pub garden but it was time spent where he was relaxed and easygoing and I definitely felt a closeness growing between us.