Last night I went out for dinner with Howie. I’d stressed to him beforehand that I couldn’t do anything more … More
Category: Dating
Good Vs Bad
Over the last few weeks, Howie and I have been texting each other. He is everything Gary isn’t. He’s kind, … More
Alcohol and Text Messages
Two days ago, I ended things with Gary and it was inevitable that it wouldn’t take long before I started … More
An Undercurrent of Insecurity?
I was supposed to see Gary tonight but I asked him if he minded if we didn’t as Katie has … More
Loving Men Doesn’t Come Easily
What I thought was going to be a time in my life where I learn to love again, I now … More
Dinner Date Gone Wrong
Earlier in the week, Gary said he wanted to cook for me this weekend so last night I went around … More
A Letter of Love
I went round to Gary’s last night, I had to talk to him about him putting his hand to my … More
A Red Flag
I’m starting to have alarm bells over Gary and while I know that my thinking can be, and often is, … More
The Key To Dating
Since our date at the beginning of the week, I’ve seen Gary once in the week and again last night … More
Kissing
Gary and I went on our official first date this morning, walking the dog at the local common. As soon … More
My Milkshake Brings . . .
I woke this morning after just four hours sleep and couldn’t get back to sleep. Gary rang me again this … More
Getting Steamy In Sainsburys
Despite Gary’s attempted seduction of me, I still went on my pre-arranged date with the biker today. He had suggested … More
Challenging My Masculinity
I’m really starting to feel the first challenge with Gary. That’s not a bad thing at all. His raw masculinity … More
Signs of Perfection?
Gary and I have been exchanging messages and talking on the phone constantly since we swapped numbers. The more I … More
No Kissing Frogs
Date number four, Gary, wanted me to suggest where to go for our date. I suggested somewhere and he didn’t … More
The Search Begins
My plan with the dating site is paying off. So far, I’ve had eight men asking if we can meet … More
Valentine’s Day Changes
Valentine’s Day this year was painful, more painful than any other particularly as it’s not something I’ve ever been bothered … More
An Alcohol-Induced Haze of Love
The night I had sex with Johnny.The night I had sex with Luke.The night I had sex with Richard and … More
The Man With No Balls
My date with Michael was a huge disappointment. He spent the majority of the evening talking about his ex-wife. They’ve … More
A Second Chance
I’m going on another date with Michael on Saturday. Despite thinking he’s not right for me, I’m also wondering if … More
Love Never Forgets
I laid in bed this morning reading and thinking and I realised that I need to keep a notebook just … More
Possessed
Over the last few days, I’ve felt so angry, lonely and tired. I’ve been so snappy today that Alice and … More
Letting Life Decide
I felt so uncomfortable with how things were going on the dating site that I deleted it today. It felt … More
Beautiful Yet Single
I received a message on the dating site this morning, it said, “I’ll get straight to the point. You’re super … More
The Vicious Circle of No Affection
I’m so boring. I realised today just how boring I’ve become. I can’t remember the last time I was any … More
The Necessary Changes To Be Loved
I joined Slimming World on Thursday. As much as I’d like to say that I’m doing this for me, it … More
Soppy But Mental Catch
My conversations with Michael have really helped me to see how important it is for me to actually look for … More
Bringing Us To Clarity
After our texts the other day, I told Michael that I may have made a mistake and rushed into something … More
The Thrill of It
I’m not really sure how it happened, but Michael and I indulged in some slightly sexual texts today, resulting in … More
An Unfamiliar Christmas
It’s Christmas Eve. Josh is at the pub, Alice is in bed watching a film, Katie’s in her room doing … More
The Pampered Princess
For the first time, I’m actually questioning if I made a mistake by not being with Phil. Constantly over the … More
A Weaker Version
Michael, Linda and Colin came round for dinner last night and I ended up feeling the same way I did … More
The Hermit
Linda and I were talking after dropping the kids off at school and she dropped into conversation that Michael didn’t … More
Clear Love
I follow Portraits of America on Facebook, this morning this came up on my newsfeed: “I’m on my way to see my … More
A Second Date
Michael and I went on a proper date tonight without Linda and Colin there. I picked him up and we … More
When Nothing Seems Real
After deciding that we would go on a date together, Michael and I talked about where but then Linda suggested … More
Why Fix Something That Isn’t Broken?
I’m having some more fears coming up today about meeting Michael. I’m not worried about him, per se, I’m concerned … More
Feeling Overwhelmed
Linda is making me feel really overwhelmed although I guess I’m feeling it anyway with Michael agreeing to a date … More
Dating Anxiety
Linda’s brother, Michael and I have been texting for the last month and recently, I suggested we actually meet up … More
Assumptions and Lies
I told a lie today, it’s not something that happens very often but I couldn’t face telling the truth and … More
My Son, My Saviour
I woke in such a great mood today. My energy has been high all week; a combination of connecting with … More
Matchmaker
I went round to my friend, Linda’s today. Linda is the mum of Annie’s newest friend at school and we … More
Not Settling
I deleted my account from the dating site today. It wasn’t right, as I knew it wouldn’t be. I looked … More
On Yer Bike
Yet again, for probably the fourth time this year, I’ve decided to join a dating site. I don’t know if … More
Bargaining For Love
I’m agitated and in the midst of a hurricane of panic. I’m back in touch with my old faithful friends … More
Balancing
I saw Pam, the counsellor again today. Pam wanted to continue what we’d started with Mum last time. She said … More
Feeling The Pain
This evening, out of the blue, I missed Phil. I realised that although I don’t want to be with him, … More
A Different Perspective
I’ve been missing Phil. Last week I craved for him. I needed his warmth, love and security. I needed to … More
Dipping My Toes In The Water
I went on a date with Theo last night. I arrived at the place we’d arranged to me and spotted … More
Not Enough
I joined a dating site last week and have been chatting with a man called Theo. He’s intelligent, funny, interesting, … More
Falling In Love
I don’t want a relationship. I’ve only been single for 19 months. Since I was 14 I’ve only been single … More
An Act?
I’ve seen Phil a couple of times since our first meeting and I’m starting to feel really pressured. Every time … More
Instinctively Confused
I just knew today was going to be a testing day. I slept really badly, a combination of my back … More
Union
I met up with Phil last night, totally spontaneously. I was at home and child free. It was 10pm, I … More
The Truth Will Set You Free
I’ve told Phil about Tom. I’ve just spent the entire morning getting it all out an email so he knows … More
Falling
Phil was texting me tonight when out of the blue he said, “I’m falling in love with you.” It completely … More
Lessons In Love
I knew the next lesson wouldn’t take long to come my way. I feel like I’m on an accelerated path … More
Phil
Yesterday, my friend, Karen posted a status on her Facebook wall about her new haircut. I left a funny comment … More
Men
Such a lot has happened over the last couple of days. Tom was distraught about the rabbits dying and admitted … More
No Regrets
I woke this morning after a terrible night’s sleep, the wine had given me the most horrendous heartburn so I’d … More
Almost
I met up with Craig for lunch again today except lunch was at my house and there was no food … More
Desired
Craig and I met up again for lunch. This time though, instead of it being two people just chatting, there … More
Sexual Being
Craig’s refusal to just jump into bed with me knocked me last night but I’m glad he did. It made … More
Let’s Talk About Sex
I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More
Naked Truth
Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More
First Date
I went on a date with Craig today, the first date I’ve been on since leaving Tom and my first … More
Dating
I joined a dating site last week. I know it’s been less than three months since Tom and I split up … More
