My weekend to myself seems such a long time ago and yet it was only 24 hours ago that I … More
Tag: Childhood Conditioning
Loving Men Doesn’t Come Easily
What I thought was going to be a time in my life where I learn to love again, I now … More
Imperfectly Perfect
I went to Linda’s for a massage today, after I’d got over a couple of hours of anxiety about being … More
Conflicting Beliefs
When I was growing up I clearly remember a lot of times when I was told by my mum, ‘You … More
Beyond Selfish
I am exhausted. I am so tired I could drop. I feel drained on every level and so tonight, after … More
Scraping the Surface
I saw my counsellor for the second time today. She asked how my week had been and if I knew … More
Letting Go Again
Alice asked to talk with me today. She mentioned how hard it is seeing her boyfriend Jack as they don’t … More
Against The Wall
I’m really restless and stressed this morning. There’s a workman here replacing the broken gate and that makes me uptight. … More
Paralysed By A Label
Growing up I soon learned my ‘label.’ My older sister, Millie was ‘The Clever One’ and I was ‘The Pretty … More
Wheel of Choice
One of my fondest memories of my childhood is from when I was about 6 or 7. I was in … More
Accepting & Embracing
I spent this evening scanning in all the photos and mementoes from some of the boxes Mum lent me of … More
Invalidated
We decided to spend the bank holiday having a barbecue. As we knew Tom would be at a loose end … More
The Foundations of Self Esteem
When Josh was a baby, I started writing books for him throughout his childhood and continued doing the same when … More
Live Up To My Potential
Phil is annoying me so much. I’m sick of his bullshit, I don’t believe him. I don’t think he’s genuine, … More
Instinctively Confused
I just knew today was going to be a testing day. I slept really badly, a combination of my back … More
Weight of The World
When I left Tom I had no choice but to apply for financial assistance in the form of some benefits. … More
Letter To James
A few weeks ago when I was right in the midst of terror and crisis, I got back in touch … More
Delving Into Money
The counselling is really making me look at and question every aspect of my life. It’s forcing me to delve … More
Stronger
I’m not sure if it’s five or six weeks of seeing the psychotherapist but I do know that I am … More