Forgetting

I woke up still feeling really angry about having to take Jasper away with us then spoke to Karen and … More

Hurting Him

I am slowly destroying Phil. I don’t mean to, I really don’t want to but I don’t seem to be … More

I’m really struggling to comprehend why this has happened now but for the last eight days, I’ve really been struggling. … More

I met up with Phil last night, totally spontaneously. I was at home and child free. It was 10pm, I … More

For far too long I’ve felt like just giving in; surrendering to my pain and allowing myself to drop deeper into … More

What do you do and where do you go when you just about reach rock bottom? It’s been creeping up … More

While carrying Annie’s toys up the stairs today, I tripped. I managed to regain my balance and then I tripped … More

It’s been two weeks since Jeanie died. My devastation is beyond anything I’ve felt before. It has shaken me to … More

I started tracing my family tree two years ago. At a time when my world was really falling apart, it … More

Annie went to Tom’s for a few hours today. When I picked her up and asked if she’d had a … More

As I say goodbye to 2010, a year of enormous personal change, I also have to say a gut-wrenchingly sad … More

I received the devastating news tonight that my very dear friend, Jeanie, has attempted to take her life. She is … More

Tom told me that he’s thinking of killing himself and has even worked out how he’ll do it. He says he’s … More

I don’t think I have ever felt so alone. I am surrounded by my family and yet I’ve never felt … More

I’ve booked to see a counsellor next Tuesday, just for me, Tom doesn’t want to go. Things are getting really … More

I don’t feel well. I’m not physically ill but I think I might be mentally ill. I sit here constantly … More

I went to see my friend, Lucy and her little boy today. Lucy and I have been friends for twenty … More