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Tag: Personal Growth
On Yer Bike
Yet again, for probably the fourth time this year, I’ve decided to join a dating site. I don’t know if … More
Friends Like These
Sometimes something sneaks up on me and takes me completely by surprise. Something that I think I’ve dealt with and … More
I’m Ready
Since the four year anniversary of leaving Tom two days ago, I’ve really felt as though a line has been … More
The Gift I Gave
This time four years ago today, I was lying on a mattress on the floor of my new house for … More
Passions & Dreams
I started reading a book that includes an online workbook to help find your passion and dreams to aid you … More
TimeLine
I asked myself a question today which ended up being very thought-provoking. ‘How much of my past have I allowed … More
Magical Inspiration
Katie has been mad about the Harry Potter films for ages so today I booked to take her, Alice and … More
Understanding
After putting off seeing Mum and being two weeks late for Mother’s Day, I finally went round there today. I … More
Letting Go Again
Alice asked to talk with me today. She mentioned how hard it is seeing her boyfriend Jack as they don’t … More
Bittersweet
My Dad rang this morning, he said he wanted to see how I was as I’d been on his mind … More
The End Of The World
Last night I dreamt . . . I am stood alone, but aware of people somewhere around me, in the … More
The Day I Acted On My Intuition
After dropping the kids to school this morning, I suddenly got the strongest intuitive sense that I needed to have … More
Unconventional
I went into Karen’s this morning for a quick catch up. It was our normal chatting about nothing in particular … More
Bruised
I haven’t had any contact with Phil for about a month now and I’ve barely thought about him in that … More
Learning To Say No
We went to Millie’s today, she’d invited us over to take Jasper so their new puppy, Rex could learn to … More
Acknowledging & Letting Go
When Tom came over to see the kids tonight we got talking, just the two of us. We were talking … More
A Harsh Reminder
This afternoon I received some very sad news. My uncle Kevin died today, he was 67 years old. It’s heartbreaking … More
Letting In
It turns out that letting go, when you make up your mind to do it and then just get on … More
The Trouble With Letting Go
I’m having a big lesson in letting go today. For the last three years I have held on to bags … More
A Reminder
I’ve spent the last couple of days ill with a bad cold. I got virtually no sleep on Friday night … More
The Other Half
Yesterday continued to be a complete washout. After writing, I fell asleep for an hour then went off to get … More
Compulsive Intuition
Over the last few weeks, something has been building that feels so right. It feels exciting. When I left Tom, … More
Singledom
My friend, Alex and I often have lengthy conversations about life, love, kids, everything. She has become a great sounding … More
1000 Days
It’s 1000 days since I left Tom. I no longer have anger or resentment towards him and on the whole … More
I Will Survive
I went to a nightclub with my friends, Sandy, Karen and Daisy tonight, it was one of the worst nights … More
The Day I Realised My Vocation
I recently read The Five Love Languages, within three chapters I finally understood my relationship history, what made some relationships … More
His Kind of Love
I took a moment today to completely focus on Phil’s many positive attributes with no thoughts of the things that … More
Intuition
Two days ago I had an overwhelming urge to speak to Craig again. We haven’t spoken properly since November other … More
Worming
Tom has been being really helpful lately and I can’t help thinking that it’s because he’s trying to worm his … More
Emotional Crutch
Phil and I went out for dinner last night and then back to his for some drinks. I stayed over, … More
Truth Built On Lies
Tom sent me another email today. . .“I have wondered how I would feel when you finally start to see … More
He Knows
The last three days have been horrible. I told Tom about Phil, he had to know sooner or later. I … More
Higher Self
I woke this morning feeling pretty awful, not ill or tired, just a profound need to be alone and retreat … More
Falling In Love
I don’t want a relationship. I’ve only been single for 19 months. Since I was 14 I’ve only been single … More
Instinctively Confused
I just knew today was going to be a testing day. I slept really badly, a combination of my back … More
Union
I met up with Phil last night, totally spontaneously. I was at home and child free. It was 10pm, I … More
The Truth Will Set You Free
I’ve told Phil about Tom. I’ve just spent the entire morning getting it all out an email so he knows … More
Lessons In Love
I knew the next lesson wouldn’t take long to come my way. I feel like I’m on an accelerated path … More
Phil
Yesterday, my friend, Karen posted a status on her Facebook wall about her new haircut. I left a funny comment … More
There Once Was An Ugly Duckling
While talking to my Mum on the phone this morning she said she’d realised something in the early hours of … More
What Love Isn’t
I replied to an email from my friend, Rachel today about her abusive ex and the new man in her … More
The Right Decision
Tom was rude to me again today. I thought I’d be kind and see if he wanted to pick Annie … More
End of An Era
It’s New Year’s Eve. Tom was supposed to be staying here the night, to see the New Year in with … More
A Christmas Gift
What better day than Christmas day to have a massive realisation that you really feel deep within, one that resonates … More
Russian Dolls
At my counselling session today Sam gave me a set of Russian Dolls and asked me to take them home … More
Needy
At my counselling session today I told Sam that I think I’m too needy. Sam asked me to tell her … More
Before The Internet
At my counselling session today we discussed something that’s become a bit of a problem recently – my obsessive use … More
Deluge
For far too long I’ve felt like just giving in; surrendering to my pain and allowing myself to drop deeper into … More
Rock Bottom
What do you do and where do you go when you just about reach rock bottom? It’s been creeping up … More
Struggling
I’m really struggling at the moment. I don’t know if it’s just because I’m a single parent or if there’s … More
Disaster
Having spent the last two days thinking that Tom and I could possibly make another go of things, although thankfully … More
Men
Such a lot has happened over the last couple of days. Tom was distraught about the rabbits dying and admitted … More
Numb
Two or three nights ago, I had a dream of a man being electrocuted in the bath. The thing that … More
Eat, Eat, Eat
For the second time, I am reading Eat Pray Love. The first time I read the book it touched me. … More
Love
Eleven months have passed since I moved into this house and away from Tom, I don’t even want to think … More
No Regrets
I woke this morning after a terrible night’s sleep, the wine had given me the most horrendous heartburn so I’d … More
Moving On
Five months have passed since I last saw Craig. The last time we met up, we almost had sex but … More
Attachments
It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More
Weight of The World
When I left Tom I had no choice but to apply for financial assistance in the form of some benefits. … More
Letter To James
A few weeks ago when I was right in the midst of terror and crisis, I got back in touch … More
This is Life
While carrying Annie’s toys up the stairs today, I tripped. I managed to regain my balance and then I tripped … More
Almost
I met up with Craig for lunch again today except lunch was at my house and there was no food … More
The Simple Things
The simple things bring me the greatest pleasures these days. Waking to snow, donning our warmest clothes; hats, scarves, wellies … More
Happy
I went to see my sister, Millie, today. She took a few pictures of me and some of Annie. When … More
Desired
Craig and I met up again for lunch. This time though, instead of it being two people just chatting, there … More
Sexual Being
Craig’s refusal to just jump into bed with me knocked me last night but I’m glad he did. It made … More
Let’s Talk About Sex
I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More
Naked Truth
Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More
First Date
I went on a date with Craig today, the first date I’ve been on since leaving Tom and my first … More
Dating
I joined a dating site last week. I know it’s been less than three months since Tom and I split up … More
Two Months On
It’s been two months since we left our old life and moved into our new home. It was absolutely the … More
The Children Suffer Too
For the last year of living with Tom, Katie would come home from school, go straight to her bedroom and … More
A Safe Place
Most probably it’s the two glasses of wine I’ve had, combined with our new kitten moving in but tonight I … More
Scared
It’s quite a journey that I went on to realise how scared I am. It started by looking at some self-portraits … More
Learning To Walk Again
I built a bookcase today. I was tempted to ring him, ask him to do it and then I thought, … More
Choices
He came over today, as usual. At lunchtime, he asked if I had ham and chips. He said maybe he’d … More
Confidence
I received an email in response to one I’d sent to a client who’s going to be a volunteer for a … More
Powerless
I don’t miss him. I had a blip. Today he came over, he ate lunch in my house, he sat … More
Exposed
It’s been twenty-five days since I left him and tried to get on with my life, clawing my way back … More
Happy Housewarming
I had five of my friends come over tonight to celebrate my new beginning with me. It’s the first time … More
When?
When will it come back? That elusive part of the self that goes missing when you go through really tough … More
Cruel Love
Silence’s alarm clock woke me constantly throughout the night to remind me of the past. The past that, just yesterday, … More
The Bittersweet Taste of Goodbye
I’m lying on the floor of an unfamiliar bedroom in a strange house. Despite the absence of the discarded plastic … More
The Key
I have signed the contract and picked up the keys to a new house, a house that just me and … More
An End In Sight
In six days, I get the keys to my new house. I wish I could say I’m excited but I … More
Heartbroken
In fifteen days I will leave this house and my life with Tom forever. The kids and I are going … More
Expecting Life
I feel as though I am pregnant with a new life that’s growing from within. It kicks and shifts constantly … More
The Slow Process of Leaving
I’m feeling shit today, I think telling the kids has made it all the more real. It seems to be … More
New Home
I am looking at a house this week that may be ideal for us, I have a few reservations about … More
In Denial
Tom seems to be in complete denial that our relationship is coming to an end which doesn’t make a great … More
Almost Over
I’ve told Tom that it’s over and that I will be moving out as soon as I can. He keeps … More
Where Do We Go From Here?
I’ve been trying to remember who I was before my world started falling apart. To claw back some of the … More
A Future of Choice
I had a dream last night but I can only remember a small part of it. In the dream, I … More
The 1000 Piece Jigsaw Puzzle
I had another dream last night. My dreams lately are really interesting and are telling me a great deal. I … More
Oppression
I had a dream last night that really disturbed me. As the day has gone on, the feelings have become … More
Breaking Point
We were supposed to be clearing all the crap out of the garden today ready for it to be gutted … More
Discoveries
Discoveries are not always good things, but always something to learn from. My discovery today is that I never put … More
Delving Into Money
The counselling is really making me look at and question every aspect of my life. It’s forcing me to delve … More
