Intolerable Anguish

I sat thinking about life and love today and I wondered if I pick the ‘bad’ boys, the ones that … More

Unloved & Rejected

Gary came round last night. It’s the first time we’ve seen each other in twelve days. I was really looking … More

A couple of weeks ago, Gary said that he no longer wanted a proper relationship and that he just wanted … More

I spent all day thinking about all the stuff with Gary and decided that I will stay with him. If … More

I told a lie today, it’s not something that happens very often but I couldn’t face telling the truth and … More

Sometimes something sneaks up on me and takes me completely by surprise. Something that I think I’ve dealt with and … More

I missed Phil like mad all day today. I was longing to see him, to snuggle in his arms and … More

I spent the afternoon with Phil today. It was perfect. Every time we’re together it feels so good. Being with … More

It was Annie’s school sport’s day today. I did a lot less watching of the sport than I did talking … More

I’m really struggling to comprehend why this has happened now but for the last eight days, I’ve really been struggling. … More

My weekend in Ireland was a mixed bag of laughter and insecurity. It was great to spend a weekend with … More

It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More

I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More

Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More

In fifteen days I will leave this house and my life with Tom forever. The kids and I are going … More

I had another dream last night. My dreams lately are really interesting and are telling me a great deal. I … More

I don’t think I have ever felt so alone. I am surrounded by my family and yet I’ve never felt … More

Why won’t Tom ever have sex with me? Am I that ugly? Is my body really that disgusting to look … More

I woke up this morning to Tom masturbating in the bed next to me. I laid there wishing he would … More

Tom always used to sit downstairs watching telly until midnight but nowadays, if he’s not at the pub, he goes … More

We’ve just returned from a visit to Tom’s family and I hated every minute of it. Tom was a complete … More

I’ve come down to earth with a bump today after a weekend away camping with the kids. I think Tom … More

Tom actually agreed to go out with me tonight, just me and him. Whenever I’ve asked him before he’s refused … More

It was Christmas day today, Annie’s first. It was also the first time in a very long time that Tom … More