I sat thinking about life and love today and I wondered if I pick the ‘bad’ boys, the ones that … More
Tag: Rejection
Unloved & Rejected
Gary came round last night. It’s the first time we’ve seen each other in twelve days. I was really looking … More
New Friends
A couple of weeks ago, Gary said that he no longer wanted a proper relationship and that he just wanted … More
A Wasted Decade
I spent all day thinking about all the stuff with Gary and decided that I will stay with him. If … More
Assumptions and Lies
I told a lie today, it’s not something that happens very often but I couldn’t face telling the truth and … More
Friends Like These
Sometimes something sneaks up on me and takes me completely by surprise. Something that I think I’ve dealt with and … More
Broken
I missed Phil like mad all day today. I was longing to see him, to snuggle in his arms and … More
To Be or Not To Be
I spent the afternoon with Phil today. It was perfect. Every time we’re together it feels so good. Being with … More
Loving Him Again
It was Annie’s school sport’s day today. I did a lot less watching of the sport than I did talking … More
Ghost
I’m really struggling to comprehend why this has happened now but for the last eight days, I’ve really been struggling. … More
Ugly
My weekend in Ireland was a mixed bag of laughter and insecurity. It was great to spend a weekend with … More
Attachments
It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More
Let’s Talk About Sex
I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More
Naked Truth
Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More
Heartbroken
In fifteen days I will leave this house and my life with Tom forever. The kids and I are going … More
The 1000 Piece Jigsaw Puzzle
I had another dream last night. My dreams lately are really interesting and are telling me a great deal. I … More
Desperate Measures
I don’t think I have ever felt so alone. I am surrounded by my family and yet I’ve never felt … More
Naked Shame
Why won’t Tom ever have sex with me? Am I that ugly? Is my body really that disgusting to look … More
Confirmation
I woke up this morning to Tom masturbating in the bed next to me. I laid there wishing he would … More
Rejected
Tom always used to sit downstairs watching telly until midnight but nowadays, if he’s not at the pub, he goes … More
Holiday Disaster
We’ve just returned from a visit to Tom’s family and I hated every minute of it. Tom was a complete … More
Baby Steps
I’ve come down to earth with a bump today after a weekend away camping with the kids. I think Tom … More
Date Night
Tom actually agreed to go out with me tonight, just me and him. Whenever I’ve asked him before he’s refused … More
Connecting
It was Christmas day today, Annie’s first. It was also the first time in a very long time that Tom … More