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Tag: Rejection

Intolerable Anguish

I sat thinking about life and love today and I wondered if I pick the ‘bad’ boys, the ones that … More

breakup, Love, Rejection, Relationship, Self Awareness

Unloved & Rejected

Gary came round last night. It’s the first time we’ve seen each other in twelve days. I was really looking … More

affection, Blame, Diarist, Diary, Rejection, Relationship, unloved

New Friends

A couple of weeks ago, Gary said that he no longer wanted a proper relationship and that he just wanted … More

Casual Dating, diaist, Diary, Flirting, Friends, Night Out, Rejection, Relationship, toxic relationship

A Wasted Decade

I spent all day thinking about all the stuff with Gary and decided that I will stay with him. If … More

Abuse, Boundaries, Diarist, Diary, narcissism, Rejection, Relationship, Self Awareness, Self Respect, Sex

Assumptions and Lies

I told a lie today, it’s not something that happens very often but I couldn’t face telling the truth and … More

Acceptance, apology, authentic life, Dating, Diarist, Diary, Fear, insecurities, Lies, real me, Rejection

Friends Like These

Sometimes something sneaks up on me and takes me completely by surprise. Something that I think I’ve dealt with and … More

Acceptance, Childhood Trauma, Diarist, Diary, Fear, Friends, inner child, Love, personal development, Personal Growth, Rejection, Self Awareness, unloved, vulnerable, Worthless

Broken

I missed Phil like mad all day today. I was longing to see him, to snuggle in his arms and … More

Diarist, Diary, Rejection, Relationship, Relationship Anxiety

To Be or Not To Be

I spent the afternoon with Phil today. It was perfect. Every time we’re together it feels so good. Being with … More

anxiety, Diarist, Diary, Fear, Hamlet Syndrome, Love, Rejection, Relationship, Relationship Anxiety, Self Awareness, vulnerable

Loving Him Again

It was Annie’s school sport’s day today. I did a lot less watching of the sport than I did talking … More

Diarist, Diary, Fear, Love, Rejection, Relationship

Ghost

I’m really struggling to comprehend why this has happened now but for the last eight days, I’ve really been struggling. … More

Abuse, Alone, anxiety, Diarist, Diary, Emotional Trigger, Healing Process, Health, Isolated, Loneliness, Mental Health, narcissism, Overwhelmed, panic attack, Parenting, Processing, Rejection, Relationship, Relationship Ghost, Scoliosis, Single Parent, Stress, Worthless

Ugly

My weekend in Ireland was a mixed bag of laughter and insecurity. It was great to spend a weekend with … More

Confidence, Diarist, Diary, Friends, Gaslighting, Healing Process, insecurities, intimidated, narcissism, Rejection, Self Esteem

Attachments

It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More

Abuse, Attachments, Diarist, Diary, Emotional Connection, Gaslighting, Healing Process, Hope, intimacy, narcissism, Parenting, Personal Growth, Processing, Rejection, Self Awareness, Sex, Single Parent, Verbal Abuse

Let’s Talk About Sex

I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More

Dating, Diarist, Diary, Fear, Healing Process, Personal Growth, Rejection, Sex

Naked Truth

Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More

Abuse, Confidence, Dating, Diarist, Diary, Friends, Healing Process, integrity, narcissism, Personal Growth, Photography, Rejection, Sex

Heartbroken

In fifteen days I will leave this house and my life with Tom forever. The kids and I are going … More

Abuse, Change, Choice, Diarist, Diary, Grief, Healing Process, narcissism, Parenting, Personal Growth, Rejection, Relationship

The 1000 Piece Jigsaw Puzzle

I had another dream last night. My dreams lately are really interesting and are telling me a great deal. I … More

Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Comfort Eating, Depression, Diarist, Diary, Dream, Family, Healing Process, narcissism, Parenting, Parents, Personal Growth, Rejection, Relationship

Desperate Measures

I don’t think I have ever felt so alone. I am surrounded by my family and yet I’ve never felt … More

Abuse, Acceptance, Alone, Depression, Diarist, Diary, Gaslighting, Mental Health, narcissism, Rejection, Relationship, Suicidal Thoughts, Verbal Abuse, Worthless

Naked Shame

Why won’t Tom ever have sex with me? Am I that ugly? Is my body really that disgusting to look … More

Abuse, Diarist, Diary, Emotional Connection, Photography, Rejection, Relationship, Self Esteem, Sex

Confirmation

I woke up this morning to Tom masturbating in the bed next to me. I laid there wishing he would … More

Abuse, Diarist, Diary, Rejection, Relationship, Sex

Rejected

Tom always used to sit downstairs watching telly until midnight but nowadays, if he’s not at the pub, he goes … More

Abuse, Diarist, Diary, Gaslighting, Rejection, Relationship, Sex

Holiday Disaster

We’ve just returned from a visit to Tom’s family and I hated every minute of it. Tom was a complete … More

Abuse, Alcoholic, Blame, Diarist, Diary, Financial Abuse, Gaslighting, Rejection, Relationship, Responsibility, Selfishness

Baby Steps

I’ve come down to earth with a bump today after a weekend away camping with the kids. I think Tom … More

Abuse, Alcoholic, Diarist, Diary, Parenting, Porn, Rejection, Relationship, Sex

Date Night

Tom actually agreed to go out with me tonight, just me and him. Whenever I’ve asked him before he’s refused … More

Abuse, Alcoholic, Diarist, Diary, intimacy, Rejection, Relationship, Sex

Connecting

It was Christmas day today, Annie’s first. It was also the first time in a very long time that Tom … More

Abuse, Cycle of Abuse, Diarist, Diary, Emotional Connection, Hope, Rejection, Relationship, Sex

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