My Darling, My Future Love, As I sit here on this warm September afternoon I think about you yet I … More
Tag: Sex
The Pull
Despite Phil being in a relationship with someone else for the last six months, he offered me sex tonight. We … More
Against The Wall
I’m really restless and stressed this morning. There’s a workman here replacing the broken gate and that makes me uptight. … More
Resistance is Futile
The last few days have been so difficult, I feel sick constantly, I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I have … More
The Day I Acted On My Intuition
After dropping the kids to school this morning, I suddenly got the strongest intuitive sense that I needed to have … More
A Physical Lifeline
One day last week I had an urge to see my cousin. I went into town today and coincidentally, bumped … More
The Continuation of Conflicted Feelings
My feelings for Phil have changed, yet again. How many times does this have to happen before I act on … More
Support
I went over to Phil’s today for sex but I realised, while there, that it’s not actually the sex I … More
Taking Control
I’ve spent the last couple of weeks thinking I wanted a relationship with Tom again. I know deep down that … More
Intimate Love
I went to Phil’s last night, I couldn’t wait to see him. I got straight in his bed, I needed … More
Dipping My Toes In The Water
I went on a date with Theo last night. I arrived at the place we’d arranged to me and spotted … More
Missing Him
I miss Phil. I never thought this would happen but the last couple of days I’ve really missed him. I’ve … More
Pondering The Future
I’m going to be forty in ten months and it’s been on my mind a lot the last few days. … More
A Stressful Month
The last few weeks have been a very stressful time. So much change has happened, inwardly and outwardly, and I … More
My Needs
I went back to see Sam, my counsellor, today. I haven’t felt a need to see her since February but … More
Union
I met up with Phil last night, totally spontaneously. I was at home and child free. It was 10pm, I … More
No Regrets
I woke this morning after a terrible night’s sleep, the wine had given me the most horrendous heartburn so I’d … More
Moving On
Five months have passed since I last saw Craig. The last time we met up, we almost had sex but … More
Attachments
It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More
Almost
I met up with Craig for lunch again today except lunch was at my house and there was no food … More
Desired
Craig and I met up again for lunch. This time though, instead of it being two people just chatting, there … More
Sexual Being
Craig’s refusal to just jump into bed with me knocked me last night but I’m glad he did. It made … More
Let’s Talk About Sex
I’ve broached the subject of sex with Craig. Taking those photographs a few days ago really got me thinking. I’ve … More
Naked Truth
Meeting Craig has been so good for me. We talk all the time and I really feel that for the … More
Getting Physical
Tom and I rarely have sex but last night we did for the first time in a very very long … More
Naked Shame
Why won’t Tom ever have sex with me? Am I that ugly? Is my body really that disgusting to look … More
Confirmation
I woke up this morning to Tom masturbating in the bed next to me. I laid there wishing he would … More
Rejected
Tom always used to sit downstairs watching telly until midnight but nowadays, if he’s not at the pub, he goes … More
Controlled
Despite what the counsellor said about me being negative, I’m starting to have doubts. I think she was wrong. Maybe … More
Baby Steps
I’ve come down to earth with a bump today after a weekend away camping with the kids. I think Tom … More
Date Night
Tom actually agreed to go out with me tonight, just me and him. Whenever I’ve asked him before he’s refused … More
Connecting
It was Christmas day today, Annie’s first. It was also the first time in a very long time that Tom … More
