I was supposed to see Gary this afternoon but ended up working till 5pm even though he said he’d only … More
Tag: Single Parent
Happy Father’s Day
Josh burst into my bedroom this morning and shouted, “Happy Father’s Day!” It was really funny but extremely ironic too … More
New, Difficult Feelings
I’ve been feeling something the last couple of weeks which is so alien to me and so difficult for me … More
An Undercurrent of Insecurity?
I was supposed to see Gary tonight but I asked him if he minded if we didn’t as Katie has … More
An Unfamiliar Christmas
It’s Christmas Eve. Josh is at the pub, Alice is in bed watching a film, Katie’s in her room doing … More
Alone & Lonely
When Josh was born, 23 years ago, I started writing books for him about his childhood and our lives together, … More
Pressured
I’ve been feeling exhausted lately. I feel drained of all energy yet really struggle to sleep at night. Last night … More
Feeling The Pain
This evening, out of the blue, I missed Phil. I realised that although I don’t want to be with him, … More
The Foundations of Self Esteem
When Josh was a baby, I started writing books for him throughout his childhood and continued doing the same when … More
The Single Parent Debate
Last week, my cousin wrote a comment on her Facebook wall directly after I posted something about having a takeaway, … More
Not Enough
I joined a dating site last week and have been chatting with a man called Theo. He’s intelligent, funny, interesting, … More
A Stressful Month
The last few weeks have been a very stressful time. So much change has happened, inwardly and outwardly, and I … More
Suffocated
I’ve just got back from twenty-four hours at Phil’s and it’s become clear to me that the lack of physical … More
Ghost
I’m really struggling to comprehend why this has happened now but for the last eight days, I’ve really been struggling. … More
Powerless Once More
Tomorrow, Annie goes away for seven days with Tom. It will be the first time she’s been away from me … More
Struggling
I’m really struggling at the moment. I don’t know if it’s just because I’m a single parent or if there’s … More
Attachments
It’s so strange how things creep up and take me by surprise when I least expect them. Annie is staying … More
Weight of The World
When I left Tom I had no choice but to apply for financial assistance in the form of some benefits. … More
Empty Heart
I’ve tried, I’ve really tried, but I cannot take Tom back into my heart. There’s barely enough room for me … More
Into the Light
As I suspected, it didn’t last. I really tried to think positively today. To remind myself that I’ve been a … More
Away Again
Tom has been away for six days now on a skiing holiday with his family. The kids and I weren’t … More
Stooping Low
It started again this morning – the name-calling and being nasty to me. This time I snapped. I told him … More