I had another counselling session today but I really didn’t want to go. All morning I kept thinking of excuses … More
Tag: Therapy
The Attraction of Physical Contact
My weekend to myself seems such a long time ago and yet it was only 24 hours ago that I … More
Getting It Out
I started counselling with a woman called Amanda today. I thought I’d just go and talk a bit about Dad … More
Golden Child Anger
I emailed a couple of counsellors today to talk about all the crap with Dad and Gary but I also … More
Imperfectly Perfect
I went to Linda’s for a massage today, after I’d got over a couple of hours of anxiety about being … More
Setting Boundaries
I had my last counselling session with Pam today. Tom and Josh had a very heated argument in my house … More
Emotional Substitutes
At counselling today we talked about Phil and a little about Tom. On the way to counselling, Tom, who had … More
Balancing
I saw Pam, the counsellor again today. Pam wanted to continue what we’d started with Mum last time. She said … More
Scraping the Surface
I saw my counsellor for the second time today. She asked how my week had been and if I knew … More
Resistance is Futile
The last few days have been so difficult, I feel sick constantly, I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I have … More
Deep
When you have a counselling session that goes quite deep it can leave you feeling a little bit like you’re … More
The Day I Realised My Vocation
I recently read The Five Love Languages, within three chapters I finally understood my relationship history, what made some relationships … More
My Needs
I went back to see Sam, my counsellor, today. I haven’t felt a need to see her since February but … More
Instinctively Confused
I just knew today was going to be a testing day. I slept really badly, a combination of my back … More
A Christmas Gift
What better day than Christmas day to have a massive realisation that you really feel deep within, one that resonates … More
Russian Dolls
At my counselling session today Sam gave me a set of Russian Dolls and asked me to take them home … More
Needy
At my counselling session today I told Sam that I think I’m too needy. Sam asked me to tell her … More
Before The Internet
At my counselling session today we discussed something that’s become a bit of a problem recently – my obsessive use … More
Deluge
For far too long I’ve felt like just giving in; surrendering to my pain and allowing myself to drop deeper into … More
Letter To James
A few weeks ago when I was right in the midst of terror and crisis, I got back in touch … More
Almost Over
I’ve told Tom that it’s over and that I will be moving out as soon as I can. He keeps … More
Breaking Point
We were supposed to be clearing all the crap out of the garden today ready for it to be gutted … More
Delving Into Money
The counselling is really making me look at and question every aspect of my life. It’s forcing me to delve … More
Stronger
I’m not sure if it’s five or six weeks of seeing the psychotherapist but I do know that I am … More
Dismissed
My psychotherapist, James, says that I dismiss myself. Maybe I do but when did it start? I know that Tom … More
Everyone’s A Mirror
I feel very tired today, I slept very badly last night. I had a conversation with Tom, I forget what … More
Ripping Open
I’ve started seeing a psychotherapist. I can’t afford to but I also can’t afford not to. I’m seeing it as … More
Controlled
Despite what the counsellor said about me being negative, I’m starting to have doubts. I think she was wrong. Maybe … More
Silenced
Alice had a few friends over to sleep tonight for her birthday. The girls’ bedroom isn’t big enough to sleep … More
Seeing The Negatives
I had another counselling session today and have come to realise that the way I am with Tom is becoming … More
Ashamed
I’ve been going to counselling for just over a month and I did think that it was starting to help … More
Getting Help
I’ve booked to see a counsellor next Tuesday, just for me, Tom doesn’t want to go. Things are getting really … More
A One-Sided Story
After the assault by Tom on Josh, Tom said he would do anything to make it better and actually agreed … More
